What Would I Do?

So here we go. I always feel like I have so much to say, so I figured what better way to get it out then a blog. A few warnings before you go any further. I might have typos, might write about a few things that only a few would understand, might write when tired, might complain, might be boring, might contradict myself, and might be totally not worth reading some days, but I will always be honest and will always be me. So read on if you want, or close the window now, your choice...you have been warned.
So today like most days have had these awesome little highs, seeing Skylar, who is now 11 weeks old smile when I sing Well Hello Dolly, or seeing her learn and try to grab her cute little piggy toes, or watching Dylan and Mackenzie play like nothing else matters in the world. But then I read a story about a 5 year old little girl named Gabby, who has without all the medical terms, brain cancer, I will never understand why these things happen. I sat and cried and watched three healthy kids playing as this little girl prepared for treatments that could save her or kill her. I sat questioning how to help, how to get more involved and how to spread the word about a little girl I don't know. This family had a healthy little girl on Mothers Day and within a few weeks found out she had this life altering problem that could end her life in weeks. I truly don't know why I was meant to see her story today and maybe it was just to make me be more thankful for those little moments and realize those moments are truly the biggest. As a mom, I hurt when my children hurt, and I smile when they do, but I cant help but hurt for this little girl and wander what would I do if it were me? Would I grab her and hug her and kiss her and never let go, would I cry uncontrollably, would I scream at God "Why my baby girl?", or would I be so in shock I couldn't do anything. I looked at this little girls video of photos of her so alive and I see recent ones at CHOP with other kids, sisters in her hospital bed loving each other and making memories. Maybe that is why I saw this, to realize that those moments that we so easily shrug off...playing school, brushing Daddy's hair, gazing out the window in hopes to see a bird, or even the annoying Mom, Mom, Mom, Mommy nagging....I would rather hear that all day every day then never again. Take a minute to remind yourself..time passes by, too fast and sometimes without even a chance to cherish it until its gone.